I strive to strike a balance between the me who is impatient, uncombed, unsettling, and the more presentable me who plays well with others. If I lean too far toward the former, I can get slovenly and depressed. If I go overboard with trying to fit in and be popular, I rebel on a deeply visceral level, and overdo it in one way or another.
I still feel like the engine hasn’t caught yet – I periodically travel from one of these versions of me to another. I would love to figure out how to accept both aspects of me and feel more comfortable in my own skin.